You guys, I’m spent. The voice of shame inside of me says, “You can’t write right now. You have nothing to offer anyone else when you are angry.” Because yes, I am angry. And I’m often angry. I confessed this to my husband the other night and he point blank said, “I know.” Today it’s […]
My husband told me I’m weak: why I’m ok
Yesterday I had my 4th headache of the week. For awhile I was able to take care of it and keep being productive. I packed boxes. I sorted clothing. I made meals. And in the middle of it I rested as I needed, too. Yesterday, however, yesterday I couldn’t peel myself off of the couch. […]
How this Perfectionist is Picking Hersel...
I am a perfectionist. A perfectionist who doesn’t want to do anything wrong, fears others showing me my failures, and who is constantly aware of what I could do better. I am tempted to define myself by my behavior, my finished to do list, or my perfect children who eat, sleep, and produce according to […]
The Day My Son Got Hurt
It was the sixth morning of kindergarten and we were waiting for the bell in the school yard with the other kids and parents. Jack had gathered a pile of rocks and formed a smiley-face with a few sticks and a strip of plastic. He stepped back and smiled at his work before running to his […]
A Bright Light in the Darkness
I wrote these words this past spring and they did not make it up on this blog then. I would like to share them with you now. For three and a half years, I slaved away at Denver Seminary working towards my Master of Divinity degree. The last nine moths of those years I was […]
“Sick Day”
I’m banging my head against the wall today. I signed up my kids for VBS this week because I want them to learn about Jesus through fun songs, crafts and games. And, honestly? I also signed them up so I could have some time to myself and so that they would come home ready to […]
It’s Very Much a Monday
The face of the boy who was woken from his nap and now sits beside me very much awake as I desperately wish to sleep. Praying, God, give me the ability to love and be patient with my children today. I am exhausted and have very little strength of my own today. Help. Thank you […]
Gratefulness; Day 7 – Like Minds
When I wrote months ago about being a Highly Sensitive Person, I may have mentioned how sometimes I feel very different than others I interact with. Ok, I don’t remember if I did say that, but I don’t have time to look back now. The truth is, I often do feel as though I approach […]
gratefulness; Day 6 – Grace
Last night, I didn’t post about gratitude. I didn’t feel it. I was worn out from lots of housework, only to find that the hose from the washing machine fell to the floor during a load yesterday causing the laundry room to be soaking wet. Not. Fun. As I cleaned up the mess at 10:15 […]
Gratefulness, Day 4 – Enough
This evening we went to Costco and stocked up. Apples, bread, pancake batter, mandarins oranges, pizza, sponges, toothbrushes… and on and on. So much so that I groaned a little as I paid for it all. I’m not sure how much we have left in our grocery budget this month. And tonight, I don’t really […]