I wanted to write a nice, positive, funny post about Jack chillin in a Target shopping cart, but all I want to say is AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

After sleeping for 20 minutes, Jack woke up screaming. This is unusual so I went to him and tried to comfort him. Thinking he might be teething again, I offered baby orajel for relief. But he stuck his tongue out while I was putting it on his gums and now his tongue is numb, he can’t suck properly and he keeps losing his pacifier.

Everything I have tried to get him to sleep has failed. I tried letting him cry like we did, but when he hadn’t fallen asleep after 20 minutes (again, unusual), I went to him. I lay with him in our bed. Still crying. I rocked him. Still crying.

I thought he had fallen asleep just now, but he’s screaming again.

AAAAAAHHHHHH!

All I want to do is relax. I want to watch Dancing with the Stars and eat cookies. Well, I want to eat cookies because he’s crying.

And while trying to soothe Jack I feel horrible for not being empathetic. I feel guilty for being so frustrated and for wanting to watch tv instead of caring for my son. And I feel helpless because I don’t know what to do to help Jack get to sleep.

Silence. Is he asleep now?

Jeez I hope so.